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one moment

these are moments that happened today.

but there was one moment today that i don't want to remember.

at the same time, i don't think i can forget it.

i had to hold my boy as he was sedated for an MRI. watching him struggle, eyes roll back and then his body go lifeless...no, i don't want to remember it.

but i will. because it's one of those moments etched in my mind that makes me grateful for all the other moments that seem trivial, or difficult, or crazy, or all of the above.

all it takes is one moment like that.

i've never been so happy to see him scream.

edit: thanks so much for all your love! lincoln is doing well. he had the MRI to further investigate the cause of his torticollis. we don't know the exact results yet but we do know that he seems to be a mystery to the medical world. we've been down every possible avenue but nothing has really worked. the good news is he has great range of motion, which means he can easily move his neck in all directions. but...he likes it just where it is. it's a hard habit to break (sing it, chicago!) looks like it is going to be a long road for us and him.

if he won't straighten it for us, maybe he will do it for a girl. ;)   

i do botox.

yes. you read right. botox.

okay. okay. before you think that i have defected to the dark side of nipping and tucking, let me calm your fears. the botox? yes, it will be used. but here's the kicker...not by me, but by the youngest member of our family. let me explain.

we noticed quite a while ago that the wee man has a head tilt. you may have noticed it in the pictures you have seen here. and you may have thought it was cute, or charismatic, or just Linc posing for the camera. in the beginning, that's what we thought too. but as time went on, it just wasn't right. it's called congenital muscular torticollis. basically his little head was cramped too long in my belly and the muscle just didn't work right from the beginning. 

we started to research it, visit a doc, and start stretching techniques in attempts to lengthen and strengthen the muscle in his neck. after a few months of little improvement, we were referred to a physical therapist for more aggressive treatment.

so now we're on this road with him. trying to make it better. and exploring all the alternatives. today i was presented with some scenarios. the most surprising one to me...as you might have guessed...botox. to say the least, i was a bit shocked when i heard that word from the PT. when i think of botox, the first thing that comes to mind is joan rivers gone bad. i'm firmly opposed to plastic surgery stuff. but that's for another day.

so the good news is that Linc won't be trying to get rid of those wrinkles anytime soon but rather trying to loosen that muscle and help his little head straighten up.

bottom line. he's still a cutie any way his head goes!